Friday, April 23, 2010

New Changes for an Old Me

Well, a lot has happened since my last post and I don't want to say that it's good or bad. Jeff and I have split but are going to try to remain friends. He has things he needs to figure out and I support him but neither of us see a point in me hanging on. He's met someone who gives him the feelings he gives to me. The feelings of completion and love and of being alive. Part of loving someone is letting them go and seeing if they come back...... always wishing them the best. I do wish him the best.

I've done some pretty amazing things so far this year. I've toured the local GM plant, driven a 2010 Camaro and most recently I went to Parris Island, SC with the USMC. I was part of an Educator's Workshop and have really gained a greater understanding of the Marine Corps and can better identify kids when the come to my office.."Miss, I wanna join the military." Hmmm.... let's talk over goals, see where you fit, and then give you some info to take home to your parents.

During my trip I also go some news. See a friend who's in a miserable marriage and has filed for divorce finds herself pregnant by a co-worker. I understand why she went looking for love and comfort in another mans arms, but I don't agree with what she did. She's very early into her pregnancy and though there are problems she's decided to keep the baby. I want to support her but I just don't agree. The chances of something going wrong are too great, the quality of life that she and the baby will have is not what she's dreaming of. See, she's got 2 kids already and her future-ex-husband isn't going to make anything easy on her once he gets served. In fact he'll use this new baby to hurt her in court and paint her as a bad mother. The current children will be torn in so many directions their poor little heads will spin. I wish I could help, I wish I knew what to say or that I could support her unconditionally but in truth I can't. She's making more bad decisions and deep down only thinking of herself. What do you do?